My Fellow Broke Millenials, I See You

Here I am, a twenty-something in grad school. I’m trying to “do all the things” to better my life, yet, I have major impostor syndrome. Despite how I carry myself, I know that I do not feel financially well. As I struggle with juggling car payments, health insurance, you know, those adult financial responsibilities, I can't help but feel the way I do. At what point am I arrested for impersonating the adult life? 

My relationship with money is a struggle. I have been unsuccessful at maintaining consistency when it comes to budgeting, paying off debt, and saving. Sure, I avoid fast fashion and have adopted some minimalism/environmentalism methods of thinking, but I am so great at justifying something as an investment. And when I've checked my bank account with the low numbers in past years, I forget that somehow, I, as well as many other millennials, am just trying to figure it all out.

I double majored in undergrad, yet I'm working a 9 to 5 that I'm not passionate about, barely making above minimum wage. My amount of student loans as an attempt to chase MY dreams, not the ones society says I should have, is overwhelming.

I see you, my fellow millennials. I see your frustrations and attempts to balance even though hope might feel lost. I see you working at the jobs that aren't fulfilling so that you can invest in your current side hustle that gives you so much life. It's hard, but we still keep pushing a little more.

The problem isn't just us. We were raised with budget cuts to art programs and trade professions. Many of us have only experienced this country in anxious turmoil since 9/11, and we've learned the hard way that financially, there isn't as much room for us as we had initially thought. But we've also been vocal in forging our individual paths, no matter how long it takes to finally turn a profit. We've weighed the holistic outcomes of a job, instead of just seeking stability. We want more integration into how we can help as the student loan crisis continues to rise and older generations compete with us for entry level positions. 

I see and admire the fire within you. It's okay to not feel content with where you are financially, but I hang on to the thought that this won't be my forever. I anticipate you are doing the same.